Tara

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Sat, 18 May 2013 11:49:57 -0400

YouTube: Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful...

Animal Totem

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 15:29:13 -0400

Animal Totem

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Fri, 05 Apr 2013 21:36:03 -0400

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 20:59:14 -0400

Happiness is…driving with the windows rolled down blasting my favorite music so loud i think...

"what, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to..."

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 20:24:29 -0400

“what, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and...

magicalnaturetour: Sumatran Portrait by *DeeOtter Eye of the...

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 17:30:01 -0400

magicalnaturetour:

Sumatran Portrait by *DeeOtter

Eye of the Tiger

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Sun, 31 Mar 2013 13:53:09 -0400

Saturday, April 7, 2012 Just got home from Easter eve mass....

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 12:50:58 -0400

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Just got home from Easter eve mass. What a dreadfully long service. 2 hours. It started off awesome. We all gathered around outside a fire pit where they threw in the notes people place in the burden basket. The priest lit a candle with the fire, which ignited all the candles everyone was holding. This was one of the few times that I truly loved ceremony.

We then proceeded inside for a series of long readings and shrill songs (one of the many times that I hated ceremony). We later had another procession to the baptismal font after a woman had been baptized. I couldn’t help that I was antsy the whole time, that my mind wandered to completely random topics and, like always in church, I couldn’t pray.

To me church shouldn’t be this boring, this structured. If you want to praise a miracle jump off your seat and fucking praise it at the top of your lungs! Shouldn’t the gratitude for life, the blessings of eternal salvation and all that be a good thing? Why do you say it with a solemn face? With a steady voice? Why all this formality? I wondered what it would be like to attend one of those baptist churches I see in the movies.

In spite of all that the Divine Feminine did show her hot, holy, and happy face. She was everywhere. The fire we passed around and illuminated the church with. What I assume is Mary Mags on the cover of the program. And whats that next to her? I do believe those are daffodils. The song on the radio: 99 red balloons. My knickers: red.

I made this when I was a youngin. Fitting since Id later on come...

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 14:55:08 -0400

I made this when I was a youngin. Fitting since Id later on come to be known as The Lioness

And the river opens for the righteous SomedayI was walking with...

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 19:02:38 -0400

And the river opens for the righteous
Someday

I was walking with my brother
And he wondered what’s on my mind
I said what I believe in my soul
Ain’t what I see with my eyes
And we can’t turn our backs this time

I am a patriot
And I love my county
Because my country is all I know
I want to be with my family
The people who understand me
I’ve got nowhere else to go

And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
Someday

And I was talking with my sister
She looked so fine
I said, “Baby, what’s on your mind?”
She said, “I want to run like the lion
Released from the cages
Released from the rages
Burning in my heart tonight”

And I ain’t no communist
And I ain’t no capitalist
And I ain’t no socialist
And I ain’t no imperialist
And I ain’t no democrat
And I ain’t no republican
I only know one party
And it is freedom

I am, I am, I am
I am a patriot
And I love my country
Because my county is all I know

And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
Someday

And the river opens for the righteous…

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Tue, 12 Mar 2013 20:28:15 -0400

"A tiny, green fern grows close to my feet, its tendrils fluttering in the air, and I am caught by a..."

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 19:38:26 -0400

““A tiny, green fern grows close to my feet, its tendrils fluttering in the air, and I am...

I am obsessed with this show and the music and these...

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 20:13:35 -0400

I am obsessed with this show and the music and these lyrics:

My friend, my friend, you are traveling
So many secrets are unraveling
Some other picture’s coming into view
I seen the water washing over you
And the water’s speaking now, it speaks your name
I hear it talking to me
Sometimes when it rains
Telling me a story of joy or pain
But I’ve got no regrets baby, I’ve got no shame

‘Cause we are water
We flow and flow
I feel you pouring through
Every inch of my soul and
I really must tell you this
Baby, before you go
We are water
We flow and flow

I am a river baby,
I’ve got plenty of time
I don’t know where I’m going
I’m just following the lines
There’s just no telling where this river will flow
I got no choice in the matter, baby,
I just go where it goes
I’m making my bed tonight
Right under this cloud
Sometimes the lightening’s so frightening
Sometimes the thunder’s so loud
Still, I know this tide is always kissing my heels
Someimes I think I’m drowning in all these things that I feel

And we are water
We flow and flow
I feel you pouring through
Every inch of my soul and
I really must tell you this
Baby, before you go
We are water
We are water
We are water
We flow and flow

Out on the beach today, I did not find
One single footstep that we left behind
So I went swimming in the deep blue sea
And I could feel that water all around me

‘Cause we are water
We flow and flow
I feel you pouring through
Every inch of my soul and
I really must tell you this
Baby, before you go
We are water, we are water
We are water, we are water
We are water, we are water
We are water
We flow and flow
We flow and flow

By Patty Griffin

Pocahontas Because she’s my hero

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 12:40:30 -0400

Pocahontas

Because she’s my hero

“If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our...

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 20:03:46 -0500

“If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change” -Buddha

In April of 2009 I had the most beautiful dream one night. In the dream I was in my front yard, but it looked nothing like my yard. The grass was tall and daffodils were in full bloom covering the entire yard, just like the scene in Big Fish. The wind was making the grass and flowers sway as if to a beautiful rhythm. I ran and danced and fell and let the grass cushion me and carry me, moving me. I laughed with the flowers as if they spoke to me. I knelt down and gave praise to the earth, in all its miraculous beauty. As if it were made just for me. I thanked it. Gave love and gratitude. I studied a flower and saw its beauty, just like the Buddha quote.

It was a very simple dream, but when I woke up, as Buddha said it would, my entire life changed. I awoke with new passion and new energy. Colors were more brighter. The sun felt warmer on my face. The life around me looked brighter. It was as if I were a newborn baby opening my eyes for the first time, this time conscious of what was happening and the world around me. Daffodils weren’t my favorite flower before this, but suddenly I saw them everywhere. Each time I was reminded of the dream and taken back to a feeling of pure peace and joy.

Every year I eagerly await the daffodils. They have become my favorite flower and spring my favorite season. They have become a symbol to me to strive for peace and happiness. Often times in my writing and life I’ll say how I want it to be like the daffodils again. I want the energy it gave me back. I want that feeling of newness, of rebirth, of awakening to a life more beautiful then it was the day before. Where colors are vibrant and food is rich. Where the earth vibrates and radiates a glow. I can only compare it to putting on a pair of glasses for the first time and the prescription makes everything sharper and more in focus, but its an experience on an existential level that rules all aspects of my life.

I haven’t felt like that since that dream and the few months that followed. Every year I hope it will be my year. Every year I try to figure out what I can do to bring that feeling back and all I think is “look for the daffodils” When I see them randomly off season like in a movie or photograph or something I get ridiculously happy and take it as a sign of good things to come. I hope to one day get one tattooed so I can have a constant reminder.

The internet taught me that the daffodil symbolizes rebirth and new beginnings.

Greeks believed the flowers came from the god Narcissus who was so in love with himself he drown while admiring his own reflection in a lake and daffodils (narcissus) grew in his place. Therefore they also symbolize unrequited love.

To christians the daffodil symbolizes Christ’s resurrection and promise of eternal life.

Fancy that.

And if anyone were ever to propose marriage to me like that, I think Id have a hard time saying no.

On This Day in 2008

Fri, 01 Mar 2013 18:10:21 -0500

God is love and God is inside of you. Inside of every living breathing thing. Nature lives and...

My dresser turning into an altar until I finally have the space...

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 23:29:43 -0500

My dresser turning into an altar until I finally have the space for a real one

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Sat, 23 Feb 2013 18:45:56 -0500

"Soul. The word rebounded on me, and I wondered, as I often had, what it was exactly. People talked..."

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 15:30:55 -0500

“Soul. The word rebounded on me, and I wondered, as I often had, what it was exactly. People...

Goddess

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 14:38:35 -0500

Didn’t you know that I am all the women who have come before me? And you have been by my side...